Letters from the heart....

I posted this to Facebook. So....for every "Like" I will write a letter :)


For every like,I'll do one. :)
1. Dear ex-boyfriend/girlfriend
2. Dear Crush
3. Dear Bestfriend
4. Dear First Love
5. Dear Ex-Bestfriend
6. Dear Mom
7. Dear Dad
8. Dear Sister
9. Dear Brother
10. Dear Future Me


1.) Dear Ex-Boyfriend, You breaking up with me is definitely one of the best things that happened to me. Because of you I started dating my current boyfriend. We've been going strong for 2 years. Us breaking up also lead you to your current wife, so,congratulations on that. I hope you have an extremely happy life ahead of you. :)


2.) Dear Crush, Can I even call you my crush anymore? You were my crush when I was 16 and again when I was 17. Senior year swim season we began dating. So I guess you aren't my crush anymore.. I don't have just a crush on you. I love you. :) I still get butterflies every time I see you and more recently I cry every time we have to say goodbye. I'm excited for the day when we say goodbye but its for a work shift. :) I love you Johnny Lee. :)


3.) Dear Best Friend, Thank you. :) For so many different things. We weren't always as close as we are now. I'm happy we are tho. Thank you for calling me on my shit when I moved away. Thank you for always having my back. We've had a ton of good times and like 0 bad times...well....depends on the definition of "bad" right? lol Through thick and thin we're there for each other. I'm glad we were stuck in Junior English together and we were the only ones the other kinda sorta knew. lol <3 SexyBitch


If I receive more "Likes" I will come back and edit this post. :)


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Another Chapter

When John left for basic training I remember all I could think was "the next 2 months are going to take forever." but now...all I can think is "The next 3 weeks are going to fly by" I'm beyond excited to see him when he comes home for 2 weeks. :)

Seeing him at his Air Force graduation was amazing. I'm so happy I got to see him and I'm extremely proud of everything he is doing. :) He is in Virginia for his tech school training. He said it is 54 days long. With 2 weeks in the middle because of Christmas Exodus.

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6 Days

In 5 days I will get to see Johnny. :)
In 4 days I will be in Texas
In 3 days I will leave Arizona
In 2 days I will be going to Johnnys mommas house

Thats as far as my count down goes.

Mood: Envious 
Listening to: Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous- Good Charlotte
I feel like: I can't even begin to describe how I feel....


I'm feeling so many different things right now. It honestly depends on the exact thing i'm doing. If i'm looking through photos of john and I, I miss him. If I'm reading through his letters, I get excited to see him. When I see my friends happily with their other, I feel happy for them but envious at the same time. I'm really anticipating seeing him on the 23rd. I get to see him for 5 days and then I have to say goodbye for....I have no clue how long. I'm over being on this roller coaster. I know thats its just starting but I wouldn't trade it for the world. Johnny is completely worth it all. These months away will be a small chunk of this time I know we'll get to spend together after this. :)

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Religious? (read with caution)

****I'll warn you ahead of time, if you are easily offended DO NOT READ THIS.*****

If you personally know my family, you know we aren't really any kind of religious. We're not nonreligious. But we haven't attended church since before I can remember.

I'm one of 3 kids. I have two older brothers. My parents are still married (I feel I have to clarify that they are married). Anyways, as a family we haven't attended church all together since......I was, I want to say 10 or 11. If you don't know me i'll be 21 in may. So, its been at least 10 years as a family attending together.

I was talking to one of my brothers last night about religion. Lets just say....hes the least religious of the 5 of us. Regardless, I put a scenario out (which I later told my dad). The scenario was If there is a car accident and some one gets hurt, I believe that when/if they get better its because the doctors did all they could and help the person in need. I, personally, do not think because other people pray for you that that is what cured or saved the person in need. Now before anyone gets upset, I'm not saying "Dont pray its a waste of energy blah blah blah". This is just what I think. You go ahead and pray :)


If some one confides in me and asks if i'll pray for their family i've always replied with "i'll keep your family in my thoughts" Has any one noticed that before now?

Now, later when I told my dad this scenario I could tell about half way through he disagreed with what i was saying. At the end he said, "I agree with you to an extent." I was a bit confused....My dad isnt exactly who I would think of as the most religious person... If i had to put us in order of most to least religious i'd say Mom, Me or Brother #1, Dad and then Brother #2. My dad starts telling me a story (one i've heard before).
"Just after your first surgery you had a really bad infection in your cheek and pallet" he said. I Interrupted, "Yeah I know dad. Mom was talking about it the other day. How the infection was so bad that I would lose my soft and hard pallet to the infection. Then I went into surgery and they removed it." He sort of looked at me and responds "They never removed the infection." At this point I was so lost. Clearly I have my soft and hard pallet still. He continues "After your surgery, your mouth was extremely infected and they thought they would have to remove it. Before they went in to remove it a bunch of people came in and saw you. Many of them from our church (we attended church at this time). Our pastor, his wife and other people came in and prayed with you. When they went in to remove the infection it was as if the entire infection had just disappeared."

At this point I was....well i guess you could say shock? This expression =O
I looked at my dad and i said "I thought you weren't religious." He responded and said "Well i'm not. I don't so much think that praying is what helped but it was the positive thinking of everyone around you."

Now this isnt a "I am a gift from god!" thing. I'm still unsure of what to think of this. The infection in my mouth was so bad that my body wasnt strong enough to fight it off. Thus the reason for a 2nd surgery to remove said infection. Some how my body did fight off this unbeatable infection. "Blessed" isnt the word i want to label this as.....it isnt the correct word. I guess until I find the word i'm looking for i'll leave it unlabeled.

Give me your thoughts on this?


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8 Weeks Minus 1 Day

1 day down......56-ish to go

I found myself waiting for a text or call or a facebook post all day today.
I'm finding myself turning my phone on the loudest setting just in case there is a late night phone call.
I found myself staring at the moon most of the night because I know what ever he's doing if he looks at the moon, its the same moon i'm looking at.
I'll be finding myself checking the mail everyday until I receive a letter from him.
I've noticed I write my letters to him before my day is over because I am that anxious to tell him what I'm thinking.
I've realized that I have no patience in the world and this is going to be the greatest test of that.

I know that the next 2 months are going to seem like the longest 2 months of my life but I know if I stay positive it could make time go a little bit faster.
I know that I'll get to see him soon. :)

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(Insert Catchy Title Here)

This is one of those blogs again. I cant really find the words to say. I've had this page open for about 5 hours. And I still don't know what to say.

Its been about 7 hours since I typed the 4 sentences above. I guess this brings the tally up to 12 hours.
And I'm still at a loss of words.

In about 30 mins I will get to talk to johnny but it'll be the last time i talk to him for about 2 months. It'll be strange... I dont know what it'll be like not being able to talk or text a person that i have talked to, literally, every day for the past 2 years.

I'm going to write him everyday and i'm probably going to update this alot more than i usually do. Lean on friends more than I ever have to keep me company and keep my spirit bright. He is doing a great thing and I know this :) and in 2 months I will get to see and talk to him and hopefully never have to go that long with out talking to him again.

Not sure what else to say at the moment.

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September 21, 2011

Johnny went home today.
I miss him already.

This past week feels like it was a dream. It didnt feel like a dream during the week though. Today when I got home I decided to pick up and make my bed. It feels like John never even came up here now. The only trace that he was here is the sock he forgot and the blanket he left with me. It smells just like him :)

I have proof he was here by the anniversary cards we exchanged. :) Our 2 year anniversary was yesterday :)

I wish we wouldve taken one picture together while he was here. We didnt take one picture together. I have a picture of him but none of us. :/

I'm going to miss him alot. This morning was the last time I got to see him until Thanksgiving. Until then I'm going to write him everyday I can :) he's going to get so many letters the other men will be jealous. :)

Well...thats all I have to say for now...

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Just Perusing

So, I was reading through a previous blog and I had written about moving out about a month ago. Well...I didnt. I got an air filter for my room and I havent had my breathing problem since. I have but....its because the air filter was off....

Johnny leaves for basic training on Sept. 27th. He's coming up here on Sept 15th and going back home on the 22nd. I'm excited for him to be here with me :) I have to work while he's here but he said he understands.

I dont have much else to say. Not too much has happened in the past month. I saw john 2 weekends ago. I flew to phoenix and surprised him and then we went to a base ball game :)

OH! this is my 50th post too :)

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What would happen in your perfect world?

I asked my friends of Facebook this question yesterday. These are the responses I received. Some were serious others weren't really but they wouldn't be my friends if the didn't joke around on my posts every now and again. For privacy reasons there pictures were removed as well as their last names. :)


What would happen in your perfect world?

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• • Willie-Pokemon would be real
    

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  • Sarah-the bills would pay themselves.
    

    17 hours ago ·  ·  2 people
  • Chasca-Prim would stop barking
    

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  • Joel-Knowledge would be available to whomever seeks it.
    

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  • Larissa-there'd be no true love.
    

    17 hours ago · 
  • Joel-Actually I change my mind. A perfect world would have infinite genie lamps. +1 for infinite wish loophole.
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  • Steven-Beer would be free lol
    

    15 hours ago · 
  • Joel-Steven, just believe in the flying spagetti monster. You'll die and be awaited by a giant fountain of beer.
    

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  • Elizabeth-unicorns would automatically come with glitter
    

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  • Larissa-No one woul feel anything.
    

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I deleted mine out because I'm actually going to talk about it :)

Q:"What would happen in your perfect world?"

A: No one would have to feel the pain of loss.

My meaning?

I wish no one ever had to know what it feels like to lose someone they love. such as a child, a parent, a grandparent, a sibling, a significant other, etc. I know thats asking a bit much. Its like wishing for eternal life. I guess I should better explain what i mean. I understand that people die. You're born, you live, you die. What bothers me is when people die before they've had a chance to live. No parent should ever know what it feels like to lose their child. When I was younger I just always had it in my head that only the elderly die. I learned at a young age that I can't attend funerals. 

I was 7 when I went to my first funeral. It was my Great-grandma "Mom-Mom". Me and my brothers were always around her, from what i remember, until we moved. I don't remember much from the funeral. I remember an open casket, going to see her, giving her a flower, and sitting down. I remember not crying at all during the service but looking up at my Grandpa Jim (her husband) and he was crying. I cant even remember if i understood at that point why he was crying. After the service they had the family in the hallway as everyone was leaving. Mom-Mom left first....thats when I remember losing it. I watched them close her casket and then watched as they carried her away. After she was taken out all the guests gave the family members their condolences. I can remember all these women I had never met before coming up to me and giving me giant hugs. All they saw was this little 7 year old weeping because she had lost her "Mom-Mom". From what I do remember my mom was standing next to me, the whole time. After the ladies would hug me they would go to my mom. I cant remember where either of my brothers were at this point. My dad wasn't there at all. He had taken time off to go see her before she passed. so he couldn't get the extra time off to go to the funeral.

About a year and a half later, I was 9, I went to Grandpa Jims funeral. I remember the whole family was there for that one. I remember meeting one of grandpa jims daughters. Thats about it. Prior to leaving to go to the funeral I remember being so upset with my parents. Where I'm from when you reach the end of 3rd grade we had this huge field day, It was supposedly a lot of fun. I was mad because I didnt get to go. Now, looking back I see that it was pointless to be mad about and it was really selfish. I don't know why I don't remember his funeral. I have no idea if I just blocked it or what.

I've had 2 family members die since then. I dont know what their funerals were like....I didnt go. I can't handle them emotionally. idk about physically...i havent been to one to learn. I had an "excuse" for one. Is that even okay to say? I had an "excuse" to not go remember the life of a loved one? Well....the "excuse" I had was, "I have cheer try-outs that week and I can't miss it". My other great-grandmas death was in April of my junior year of high school so 2009. We called her "Grandie". I now wish I would've gone to where the funeral was and at least been there with my family. Like stayed at the house while they went to the service? 

The other one was my Grandpa. My moms, dad. He was still young as I see it. 60 something. I believe that is young for people to die now-a-days. I think I regret not going to that funeral more than than the other. He passed away November 3, 2008. I remember the date perfectly. I've learned to laugh about some things about my grandpas life. My grandpa was a very racist man from what I remember and what I'm told. Honestly, If he had voted (which he didnt) he wouldnt have voted for Obama. I joke with my mom and tell her "You know grandpa would say 'I'll die before a black man becomes president'" Election Day for president in 2008 was November 4th. Its one thing that just sorta makes up laugh about while remembering him. 

I know this strayed a bit from what I started with.....but I wanted to explain that. I posted that question because Johnny, my boyfriend, his grandpa passed away 2 days ago. Its the first person he's ever lost and I couldnt even be with him to try to make him feel better. We're 2000 miles apart and its rather difficult to console over the phone. I just wish things were different when it came to death.

I'm getting a tribute tattoo. When I redraw it out the notes on the side will be to a different song but everything else will be the same. The 4 notes in the middle are for the people I've lost. The connected for Mom-Mom and Grandpa Jim, the 1/2 note for Grandie, and the 8th note for my Grandpa Trauthwein.

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August 5, 2011

I really tried on my title....cant you tell :P
I just thought i'd put out a small update :)

I am currently living with Chasca but I am moving out soon. apparently between my asthma, allergies, AND animals in the house its all teaming up together to try to kill me in my sleep. No seriously..... I wake up nightly gasping for air. i've had multiple pets before and i love them.....its just their 3 dogs and 4 cats plus my 1 cat its too many for my allergies. I appreciate everything they have done for me and taking me in. :) I would gladly stay if i could.  I am moving from buhl to chisholm.....to the apartment directly behind my childhood home.....weird right? lol I'm not sure when i'm moving. actually i'm not even 100% sure if I am moving. it depends on the cost of certain things. but more than likely.....i am.

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"Family" What is it?

I decided to change the title of this post. Some of you may have read it as "I Dont Even Care". If you remember reading that post i'd stop now.....you'll be reading the same thing.

"Family events"
What does that mean to you?

I guess I'm the crazy person who thinks that the main word is FAMILY. What is a family event? Birthdays, weddings, etc. If there is a birthday and there is a party...normally...."normally"... family is invited right? The way I see it is every member of the family should be invited regardless. (as long as they are in the same state) So mom gets invited somewhere......all her kids are grown and out of the house, do you assume that she will tell her kids for you OR do you call them up yourself or send them their own invite? I would think that you would invite them yourself. Dont shove it off onto someone else and assume that they get told. Now come on kids.....we all know what ASSUME really means right?

Anyways... everyone gets an invite....if they always say no, so what? At least you tried. Its them who decided not to go to the event. Them deciding not to go is much better than not inviting them in the first place.

What does the word family even mean to you?

The people I chose to have be there for me when I want them there? NO

You can choose your friends....not your family.

Your family is the people that were given to you with out a choice. They are the people who should be there and have your back even when you dont want their help. Thats who your family is. Can you strongly dislike them at times? yes. Lets face it we all have points where our family makes us want to rip your hair out. But there are other times that we see that we just may keep them around :)

I guess if you have gotten this far you know I'm not talking about nothing. I'm relating this to myself and my family. I just thought I'd give you, my readers, the chance to tell me what you think or even vice versa. I'm just letting you know what I think.

Thats all for now.

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Its official....I guess...

Well, I'm moved. I finished unpacking most of my things. I never realized how much I missed Minnesota until i finally moved back. Now it seems as if all of my old friends are jumping at me to try to hang out. I think I've hung out with one of them? Aside from the friend I live with. I live here now tho....so i think there is plenty of time to hang out. :) I have a new job :) i'm excited to start.

Now about the road trip from hell. Day 1 was fine....long but fine. Day 2 was just ridiculously hot going through Texas. We had a small problem with my coolant but....that was my fault.... I opened it while it was hot and got the contents everywhere. I've been told multiple times that i was very lucky I didnt get severely burnt. Day 3 was where we ran into REAL problems.....so we made it from Wichita, KS(where we had stopped for the night day 2) to the border of Iowa and my car over heated. Then to Minnesota and it over heated again. We approached Minneapolis that night at about 9 pm....or 10 pm. We were making a drive from there to Chascas grandmas (where we would eventually stay that night) it should have been about a 30 min drive......we arrived at her grandmas at 3 am. We could drive my car about 35MPH and it would over heat. The next morning (day 4) we checked all fluids and they were full. 4 hours was the last of our drive and then we would be home! We made it so far the previous day so we figured what the hell....we can make it right? WRONG! We made it approximately half way and over heated again. We were trying to make it home at this rate. For those of you in Minnesota....we couldnt even make it to black bear casino/ cloquet. We got to a town called Barnum. That is where Chascas mother picked us up and drove us home for the night. DAY 5!!! Keep in mind please that this is only supposed to take 3 days. Chasca and I dropped her mom off at work and headed off to Barnum. There we hooked my trailer of belongings onto their blazer(we had to get the ball mount taken off my car and put on theirs thats why it had to wait a day). I got in my car, Chasca in her blazer, and we headed to buhl. Without my car pulling the trailer made the trip, finally.

I never want to make that drive again in my little buick. BUT i dont think it'll last that long....

Johnny leaves for his basic training in September. We're both excited about it. :)

I guess thats all i have to tell for now. :)

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So, Heres the thing...

Well,
        I think i've been attempting to type out this blog for the past 2 weeks.....

For those of you I haven't told......I'm moving. I know that a question that many of you have is....what about John? Well, we are staying together. He is leaving for basic training soon so he is moving in with his mom or a friend.

I am currently looking for a job where I used to live in Minnesota. I'd like to tell you all that I know exactly what I plan to do....when i'll be home, all of that. Honestly, I haven't the slightest clue whats going to happen from here and for once....its the best feeling in the world. I love all the people i know and have met down in phoenix. But, on the range....i'm home. i've been away from the range for 6 years... this month marked the anniversary actually. I miss it so much. It used to bug me so bad if i didnt go back for my school breaks. i havent been back since my college fall break last october and i've been  dying to go back. Well...now i'm moving back. I am so happy to be going back.

I will miss everyone in Phoenix so much just like I missed everyone on the range while i lived here. I planned on moving one day anyways....why not make it when i desired it the most? I know some of you will be pissed at me cause i'm leaving while on the other hand some of you will be happy because i'm moving closer to you. There is no winning situation. Not everyone will get to be happy. At the moment I'm concerned about mine and I'm going to do what will make me happy.

I'm sorry,

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Really?

Is this really what its going to come down to? I may not be able to finish my schooling because my parents credit is too bad? Maybe if they were both irresposible and didn't have jobs then maybe, maybe I could get the funding to finish school.
Do you even realize how screwed up that statement was? So because my parents have a job and don't screw over the state and don't rely on the state I can't finish going to school. I have 3 quarters left of school. And I may not be able to finish because I can't afford it anymore. So thank you to the screwed up financial system for screwing over me and my plans for my future.

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Seriously?

Things are finally starting to get good and then this stupid crap happens?

thats a bunch of crap.

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No Subject

I just feel awful, what seems like, all of the time. It has to be one of the crappiest feelings in the world. I'm not displeased with my life. I love who I am with and I wouldn't trade him for anything.... I just feel like I need to go back "home". Part of me wishes that I would have just gone to Minnesota for the last week for my spring break...maybe then I would be feeling a little better about myself... I just feel like a horrible person and if I didn't have school on Wednesday I would probably fly home as soon as I could just because I feel like I need to.

You can't run away from everything though, can you? Its seemed like anytime I don't like something thats going on in Arizona I could just fly home to Minnesota and just forget everything. For just one week I didnt have to care about anything that I should care about. I want to go home right now... I want it to still be my house. If you want to understand more...there is a fine like between a house and a home..... El Mirage, AZ is where my house is.....Chisholm, MN is where my home is. I miss Chasca. Its been 6 months since I've seen her...thats actually a really long time for me. Even during high school I went back there every three months, Its going to be almost 9 before I can go back again.

John is leaving soon... I don't know when. I just know soon. I'm going to miss him so much. I can't even begin to try to explain how much I am going to miss him. I'm not very sure what I'm going to do with myself when he's gone... I know I'll have school but thats only going to be until June 2012. I don't know when he'll be back...he has basic and then the training after that...so I guess I'll see.

For now....

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10 signs your child may have ADHD

1. Forgetfulness.
2. Trouble paying attention to details.
3. Overly impulsive. 
4. Over focused on tasks. 
5. Has trouble shifting focus. 
6. Doesn't complete tasks. 
7. Constantly fidgets and squirms. 
8. Talks excessively.
9. Can't keep powerful emotions (good or bad) in check.
10. Has difficulty waiting for her turn.




Some one please tell me if you don't have ANY of these qualities.
I have ADD well......thats what it was called when I was diagnosed. I wouldnt consider myself hyper by any means. I feel like now-a-days if your kid doesnt pay attention to any detail or they forget one thing they MUST have ADHD. Honestly, I think that is a bunch of crap. but that is just me. They're kids.....there are going to be things that kids dont like so they may not pay as good attention to it. i'm just sayin....


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My Feelings....At The Moment

I get this feeling, more often then not, that i'm not good enough......
For various things. I feel like i'm not good enough to meet expectations. I know I shouldn't strive to meet other peoples expectations. I hate getting the feeling that people are looking down their noses at me because i'm not good enough for them. I know many people would say to me right now "you dont need those people in your life" right? I cant exactly rid myself off them. its way more complicated than that and i dont want to explain. I just wish i didnt have to work so hard to try and win the approval of other people. Thats just how I feel right now and I'm sick of it.

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Day 30- 3 things you've learned in the last 30 days

Dont eat yellow snow. haha just kidding i knew that from living in minnesota.

I learned howto make a cheesecake
I learned that i've been icing cakes wrong.
I learned that i actually do have things to say and i can post on my blog on a daily basis. =]

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Day 29- Something you could never get tired of

1. Mac-and-Cheese
2. Disney Channel
3. Music
4. Books
5. Cook books specifically
6. Root Beer
7. Shirley Temples
8. Stuffed Animals
9. My Diary.

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Day 28- Your Favorite Movie

I dont have just one.... lol

• Boondock Saints
• Finding Nemo
• Boondock Saints 2
• Cinderella
• Many,Many mmore =]

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Day 27- A Picture of you Last Year and Now

 My senior year of high school and my freshman year of college. Something that has changed since then? I have a diploma now haha. My eating habits have stayed the same but my athletic habits have not. so i'm working on fixing that right now.

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My Thoughts

So i was just thinking today.....when did it become cool to be a smoker? Now i'm not talking bad about people who do smoke. you do your thing. What i'm saying is since when is it cool for high school, or younger, kids to smoke. From what i can recall, when i grew up you were a friggin idiot for smoking. Like i see these kids smoking and i'm like dood what are you doing? Do you think you look like a BAMF because you dont.

I guess when I was in high school I didnt really care. I let my friends do their thing if they wanted to and that was that. I never tried talking them out of it and I still to this day wont lecture someone about the effects of smoking. Its just not me. But I sit and think about those 12, 13, 14 year olds and I cant help but shake my head. Why? that is my main question. If you ask an adult most of them say "stress" or addiction. some will say oh its just social...but more often then not its a habit.

When I have kids I just hope to god that they never even want to smoke. Its a waste of money and......honestly in my eyes.....you're paying to kill yourself. I'm sorry to the people who dont like this post,or disagree, or whatever. BUT this is MY opinion. this is how I FEEL. You are more then welcome to comment on this and tell me you're thoughts. i would actually love you to tell me what you think about this. please get in my face if you must. i like feed back =]

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Day 26- A Photo of Some Where You've Been To

I know of all the places I could've posted a picture of I picked this house. I lived in this house for 13 years. So, yeah, I've been there. Many Many Many times. =] This is also the photo i wanted to post for day 24 i think it was. It means alot to me. More then anyone could ever understand if you ask me. =]

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Day 25- What is in your purse

well.......i would normally have my wallet, chap-stick, maybe school books and pens in my purse......but my wallet is missing.  i cant say it was stolen because i guess i could've lost it but it sure as hell is no where that i've looked. If you can think of a place for me to look that i possibly haven't yet please let me know. maybe its in that place.

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Day 24- A Photo of something that means alot to you

See Day 21 lol

My brother gave me a necklace identical to this one when i was 16. When I was 17 I was running passes for the front office on my high school campus and the chain broke. I didn't even notice the chain broke. By the time I did notice I had no idea when the chain broke or where the pendant was at. It means alot to me because my brother got the necklace for me when he was in Ireland and it was when I was living in Arizona with mom and he was in Minnesota with dad. It just means a lot to me


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Day 23- 15 Facts about yourself

1. I love cats
2. Though I will hardly ever admit it.....I'm a natural blonde.
3. My room is almost always a mess
4. I will be 20 on May 4th
5. Most people give me a "your lying" look after i tell them my age
6. I have a 95 Buick that i hate but love at the same time.
7. I have a fish named Jack.....
8. Jack has a pirate ship in his tank =]
9. I love culinary school
10. I'm in culinary school for baking and pastry
11. I have a secret love for cooking but its not as big as my love for baking
12. I live with my parents
13. I have more stuffed animals than a small child
14. I used to Curl. for people who dont know what that is....its the game in the olympics where they throw a big rock down a sheet of ice into a bullseye.
15. I've convinced myself that people that i dont even know love to read my blog and hear my talk about my life.... =/

Day 22- a Letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

well.....maybe later on today i cant write this letter.....but at the moment. noes goes. I cant honestly think of someone who has hurt me recently.  so i cant acutally write a letter to said person because i dont know who that said person is. Follow? lol good. =]

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Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

This picture could mean absolutely nothing to you but it means so much to me. Its a picture of the place that i have lived the longest out of every where i've lived. And although its very different then i remember its one of my favorite places in the world. Its where some of my first memories are even though i moved there when i was 5. I cant really remember the 4 houses i lived in before that. I always thought about wanting to have kids there. i dont know how i feel about it now. when i grew about there i always though that it was like a drug free area and blah blah blah..... well for those of you who dont live there or have never heard of Chisholm, MN its not drug free. Its probably just as bad as any town you walk into. I guess i was the kind of kid who was never into that type of stuff. John is going into the air force and if we stay together, well lets just say there is no Air Force base in Chisholm. lol

I couldnt imagine all those little old bittys freaking out because of the air planes. Chasca came here for a visit and i remember her asking me what the noise was when a plane was flying over. At first i had no idea what she was talking about. i then had to take a second and realize "Oh its then planes flying over.....thats normal" ;)

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Day 20- The Meaning Behind Your Blog Name.

Uhmm.. Well the original blog name was "Given Thoughts" and it was just because it was my thoughts that i gave out about anything. I then changed it to "Later Days" because that is my sign off.  I remember watching the weekenders on tv as a kid and the main guy always ended the show with some short story and later days. I guess i kinda borrowed it from there. from what i know that isn't copy-written. =] hope not lol

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Day 19- Another picture of yourself

I dont know what another picture of myself has to do with my blog? but okay haha.

This is one of my graduation pictures. Its one of my favorites. I Love the way they did my hair and make up, its also the dress i wore to the winter formal. I never intended on wearing it for anything other than my senior pictures but....it was pretty perfect for the theme. =]

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Day 18- Something you crave alot

Uhm.....I'd really have to say...... Mac & Cheese. from the box lol

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Day 17- A photo of you and your family

My family at my graduation. Its the most recent i have =/ My mommy Alice, James (21), ME!(19), Jarred (24), and my daddy Gary.

I love them and they all mean the world to me. I wouldnt be where i am with out them. In quite a literal sense. haha. I would not be in Arizona if it wasnt for them moving me here 5 years ago lol.

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An Uncommon Encounter (Writing assignment)

I just wrote it so tell me what you think. =]



I had fallen asleep in my dads Blue Lay-z-boy recliner after watching a boring episode of CSI: Miami. The dream i had felt so real. Ding-Dong. who is at my door?  i walk down the stairs through my living room and dining room to open the door. its the secret service! My jaw dropped. "Did i do something wrong?" I asked.  "No M'am. Please come with me." the man replied back. as i stepped out side i saw Air Force One.

I walked with him the helicopter that was sitting across the street. The amount of wind was insane. i had to hold my hair down to keep it from lashing in my face. the hand that wasnt holding my hair, was across my face so i wouldnt breath in all the dust being kicked up. the step from the ground to the helicopter was too high....it must've been 2-3 feet. i thought to myself i'm going to have to crawl into this helicopter. before that thought fully crossed my mine the man from the secret service was lifting me up to another man in the helicopter.

"My name is dave" the man said. "Your brother entered you in a contest to interview with the president. He told us how much you would like it."  I stopped and thought....what year is it? which presidnt could i possibly be meeting. I assumed it would be president obama. He is the president now. I asked, "Do you have a cell phone? I'd like to call my brother and thank him" Dave laughed very deeply, the kind of laugh that seems to echo in your head forever. "What is a cell phone? I've never heard of that before." I stopped again to think....no cell phone.....it must be before my time. "I'm sorry what is the date?" I asked again. Dave Replied, " You know i'm not the person you are supposed to be asking questions to. " He Laughed "But its May 27, 1962."

1962!!!!! oh my goodness. not am i only before my time. but my parents arent even born yet... Just then we landed in front of the white house. Dave rushed me into the front of the white house. Wait here while we get the president. I'm walking in circles thinking..... who was the president in 1962......c'mon, think, you learned this in school. JFK!!! oh my goodness.....how am i supposed to ask this man questions when i know that he is going to be assassinated in roughly 18 months.

"Jerica?" a voice said. I turned to see Mr John Fitzgerald Kennedy. I opened my mouth and blurted,  "Mr President! It is so great to meet you. I cant believe i am even here. I will really have to thank my brother for this!" He chuckled "It is very nice to meet you too. Lets Walk this way i want to show you my oval office." As we walked i saw old paintings of all of the previous presidents. I just couldnt believe i was in the white house. in the white house in 1962!! We walked into the oval office and it was like nothing i had ever seen before.

Everything i have seen on tv was real. The Seal the big desk the big beautiful windows. it was all so unreal!! We Sat down. "would you like anything to drink?" he asked me. "I'll just have some water" I responded.  I could never believe that i would be sitting here with JFK. He was wearing  a firmly pressed black suit. a white long sleve shirt and a blue tie. He looked so young. i couldnt believe someone would want to harm this man sitting in front of me. My head kept circling the thought that he was going to die in roughly 18 months.

i asked my first question " How long to do you plan to stay in office" He answered "well thats really not my choice is it? its the choice of the people. they decide how long i get to stay in office. I am running again next term. How old are you?"  I answered "well i wasnt expeccting you to ask me any questions. I am 20 though. My birthday Just passed" I Thought to my self... well in 2011 my birthday had just passed but i guess in 1962 i didnt even exist. "Well I see that since you won this interview you admire me. I can expct your vote to keep me in office." he said. I said "well i will most definately vote for you" I thought...if i could.

the lady with water came in and tripped. I launched out of my chair to help her but everything was already falling to the ground. I hit the ground and i jolted awake. I was so bummed to find out that i was back in my loft in 2011 and JFK was dead. Nothing could possibly compare to the dream that i had.

Day 16- Your Celebrity Crush.

I gotta say Paul Wesley or Ian Somerhalder.

Love both of them!!

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Day 15- Something you never leave your house with out.

My CELL PHONE!!!! I have left the house with out it and i feel like i'm about to die. maybe not so literally but i didnt think i could be so attached to something.... =/

Well...

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Day 14- A tv show you are currently addicted to

Vampire diaries, Glee, and Pretty Little Liars.
I love very single one of these shows and they are all so different from each other =]=]

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Day 13- Your favorite musician & why

I wouldn't say that i have a favorite. I love music. I love to sing...if i could play better or had a keyboard i would play more. I love Carrie Underwood, Jamestown Story,Ke$ha, 3oh!3.....and alot more. so i dont have just one favorite.

Day 12- A Picture of the town you live in

Well this isnt exactly following what its supposed to be. No person actually has a picture of El Mirage so...this is a picture of phoenix. =] Close enough. El Mirage is a little bit ghetto if you ask me tho....its not exactly a town you drive into and take a picture of.

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P.S. Happy Valentines day to all my readers out there =]

Day 11- What is in your make up bag?

Well......big shocker here.....i dont have a make up bag. i have one eye liner that i wear and one of those....big square things with like 50 eye shadows in it.....so no bag. just those. so sorry to burst your bubble blog. =/

any who....it was my baby cousins first birthday party today!! so exciting. =]
i made her cakes. cakeS because she got her own and the rest of us ate the other.

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