Dear Readers,

I've been long out of contact with this page. I started a New Blog and I encourage you to follow me on there. Please click the hyper link :) "New Blog"
Thank you so much for being loyal to me these past 3 years. :)

Love,
Jerica

Letters from the heart....

I posted this to Facebook. So....for every "Like" I will write a letter :)


For every like,I'll do one. :)
1. Dear ex-boyfriend/girlfriend
2. Dear Crush
3. Dear Bestfriend
4. Dear First Love
5. Dear Ex-Bestfriend
6. Dear Mom
7. Dear Dad
8. Dear Sister
9. Dear Brother
10. Dear Future Me


1.) Dear Ex-Boyfriend, You breaking up with me is definitely one of the best things that happened to me. Because of you I started dating my current boyfriend. We've been going strong for 2 years. Us breaking up also lead you to your current wife, so,congratulations on that. I hope you have an extremely happy life ahead of you. :)


2.) Dear Crush, Can I even call you my crush anymore? You were my crush when I was 16 and again when I was 17. Senior year swim season we began dating. So I guess you aren't my crush anymore.. I don't have just a crush on you. I love you. :) I still get butterflies every time I see you and more recently I cry every time we have to say goodbye. I'm excited for the day when we say goodbye but its for a work shift. :) I love you Johnny Lee. :)


3.) Dear Best Friend, Thank you. :) For so many different things. We weren't always as close as we are now. I'm happy we are tho. Thank you for calling me on my shit when I moved away. Thank you for always having my back. We've had a ton of good times and like 0 bad times...well....depends on the definition of "bad" right? lol Through thick and thin we're there for each other. I'm glad we were stuck in Junior English together and we were the only ones the other kinda sorta knew. lol <3 SexyBitch


If I receive more "Likes" I will come back and edit this post. :)


Later Days

Another Chapter

When John left for basic training I remember all I could think was "the next 2 months are going to take forever." but now...all I can think is "The next 3 weeks are going to fly by" I'm beyond excited to see him when he comes home for 2 weeks. :)

Seeing him at his Air Force graduation was amazing. I'm so happy I got to see him and I'm extremely proud of everything he is doing. :) He is in Virginia for his tech school training. He said it is 54 days long. With 2 weeks in the middle because of Christmas Exodus.

Later Days

6 Days

In 5 days I will get to see Johnny. :)
In 4 days I will be in Texas
In 3 days I will leave Arizona
In 2 days I will be going to Johnnys mommas house

Thats as far as my count down goes.

Mood: Envious 
Listening to: Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous- Good Charlotte
I feel like: I can't even begin to describe how I feel....


I'm feeling so many different things right now. It honestly depends on the exact thing i'm doing. If i'm looking through photos of john and I, I miss him. If I'm reading through his letters, I get excited to see him. When I see my friends happily with their other, I feel happy for them but envious at the same time. I'm really anticipating seeing him on the 23rd. I get to see him for 5 days and then I have to say goodbye for....I have no clue how long. I'm over being on this roller coaster. I know thats its just starting but I wouldn't trade it for the world. Johnny is completely worth it all. These months away will be a small chunk of this time I know we'll get to spend together after this. :)

Later Days

Religious? (read with caution)

****I'll warn you ahead of time, if you are easily offended DO NOT READ THIS.*****

If you personally know my family, you know we aren't really any kind of religious. We're not nonreligious. But we haven't attended church since before I can remember.

I'm one of 3 kids. I have two older brothers. My parents are still married (I feel I have to clarify that they are married). Anyways, as a family we haven't attended church all together since......I was, I want to say 10 or 11. If you don't know me i'll be 21 in may. So, its been at least 10 years as a family attending together.

I was talking to one of my brothers last night about religion. Lets just say....hes the least religious of the 5 of us. Regardless, I put a scenario out (which I later told my dad). The scenario was If there is a car accident and some one gets hurt, I believe that when/if they get better its because the doctors did all they could and help the person in need. I, personally, do not think because other people pray for you that that is what cured or saved the person in need. Now before anyone gets upset, I'm not saying "Dont pray its a waste of energy blah blah blah". This is just what I think. You go ahead and pray :)


If some one confides in me and asks if i'll pray for their family i've always replied with "i'll keep your family in my thoughts" Has any one noticed that before now?

Now, later when I told my dad this scenario I could tell about half way through he disagreed with what i was saying. At the end he said, "I agree with you to an extent." I was a bit confused....My dad isnt exactly who I would think of as the most religious person... If i had to put us in order of most to least religious i'd say Mom, Me or Brother #1, Dad and then Brother #2. My dad starts telling me a story (one i've heard before).
"Just after your first surgery you had a really bad infection in your cheek and pallet" he said. I Interrupted, "Yeah I know dad. Mom was talking about it the other day. How the infection was so bad that I would lose my soft and hard pallet to the infection. Then I went into surgery and they removed it." He sort of looked at me and responds "They never removed the infection." At this point I was so lost. Clearly I have my soft and hard pallet still. He continues "After your surgery, your mouth was extremely infected and they thought they would have to remove it. Before they went in to remove it a bunch of people came in and saw you. Many of them from our church (we attended church at this time). Our pastor, his wife and other people came in and prayed with you. When they went in to remove the infection it was as if the entire infection had just disappeared."

At this point I was....well i guess you could say shock? This expression =O
I looked at my dad and i said "I thought you weren't religious." He responded and said "Well i'm not. I don't so much think that praying is what helped but it was the positive thinking of everyone around you."

Now this isnt a "I am a gift from god!" thing. I'm still unsure of what to think of this. The infection in my mouth was so bad that my body wasnt strong enough to fight it off. Thus the reason for a 2nd surgery to remove said infection. Some how my body did fight off this unbeatable infection. "Blessed" isnt the word i want to label this as.....it isnt the correct word. I guess until I find the word i'm looking for i'll leave it unlabeled.

Give me your thoughts on this?


Later Days

8 Weeks Minus 1 Day

1 day down......56-ish to go

I found myself waiting for a text or call or a facebook post all day today.
I'm finding myself turning my phone on the loudest setting just in case there is a late night phone call.
I found myself staring at the moon most of the night because I know what ever he's doing if he looks at the moon, its the same moon i'm looking at.
I'll be finding myself checking the mail everyday until I receive a letter from him.
I've noticed I write my letters to him before my day is over because I am that anxious to tell him what I'm thinking.
I've realized that I have no patience in the world and this is going to be the greatest test of that.

I know that the next 2 months are going to seem like the longest 2 months of my life but I know if I stay positive it could make time go a little bit faster.
I know that I'll get to see him soon. :)

Later Days

(Insert Catchy Title Here)

This is one of those blogs again. I cant really find the words to say. I've had this page open for about 5 hours. And I still don't know what to say.

Its been about 7 hours since I typed the 4 sentences above. I guess this brings the tally up to 12 hours.
And I'm still at a loss of words.

In about 30 mins I will get to talk to johnny but it'll be the last time i talk to him for about 2 months. It'll be strange... I dont know what it'll be like not being able to talk or text a person that i have talked to, literally, every day for the past 2 years.

I'm going to write him everyday and i'm probably going to update this alot more than i usually do. Lean on friends more than I ever have to keep me company and keep my spirit bright. He is doing a great thing and I know this :) and in 2 months I will get to see and talk to him and hopefully never have to go that long with out talking to him again.

Not sure what else to say at the moment.

Later Days