Things are finally starting to get good and then this stupid crap happens?
thats a bunch of crap.
Later Days
thats a bunch of crap.
Later Days
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Sunday, April 3, 2011
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I just feel awful, what seems like, all of the time. It has to be one of the crappiest feelings in the world. I'm not displeased with my life. I love who I am with and I wouldn't trade him for anything.... I just feel like I need to go back "home". Part of me wishes that I would have just gone to Minnesota for the last week for my spring break...maybe then I would be feeling a little better about myself... I just feel like a horrible person and if I didn't have school on Wednesday I would probably fly home as soon as I could just because I feel like I need to.
You can't run away from everything though, can you? Its seemed like anytime I don't like something thats going on in Arizona I could just fly home to Minnesota and just forget everything. For just one week I didnt have to care about anything that I should care about. I want to go home right now... I want it to still be my house. If you want to understand more...there is a fine like between a house and a home..... El Mirage, AZ is where my house is.....Chisholm, MN is where my home is. I miss Chasca. Its been 6 months since I've seen her...thats actually a really long time for me. Even during high school I went back there every three months, Its going to be almost 9 before I can go back again.
John is leaving soon... I don't know when. I just know soon. I'm going to miss him so much. I can't even begin to try to explain how much I am going to miss him. I'm not very sure what I'm going to do with myself when he's gone... I know I'll have school but thats only going to be until June 2012. I don't know when he'll be back...he has basic and then the training after that...so I guess I'll see.
For now....
Later Days
You can't run away from everything though, can you? Its seemed like anytime I don't like something thats going on in Arizona I could just fly home to Minnesota and just forget everything. For just one week I didnt have to care about anything that I should care about. I want to go home right now... I want it to still be my house. If you want to understand more...there is a fine like between a house and a home..... El Mirage, AZ is where my house is.....Chisholm, MN is where my home is. I miss Chasca. Its been 6 months since I've seen her...thats actually a really long time for me. Even during high school I went back there every three months, Its going to be almost 9 before I can go back again.
John is leaving soon... I don't know when. I just know soon. I'm going to miss him so much. I can't even begin to try to explain how much I am going to miss him. I'm not very sure what I'm going to do with myself when he's gone... I know I'll have school but thats only going to be until June 2012. I don't know when he'll be back...he has basic and then the training after that...so I guess I'll see.
For now....
Later Days
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